New Beginnings

Okay so I am not gonna lie these past couple of months have been so crazy but I feel good that I have become strong enough to get through it (not without my family of course). I really proved to myself that I can do anything and the sky is the limit. Tonight when I was thinking about what to write about, a trillion things came to my mind all at once haha but I think that mainly today I feel the best because I did something that I felt I had to do and what was best for me. I am the type of person who feels she can handle anything and everything all at once and take it all on, and this whole time I kept praying and asking God what he is trying to tell me or what is he testing me on...to take on more? (I hate to say it but I was hitting the bottom pretty hard and I am a very positive and bubbly person) So I never did anything about it and I kept it up...and then I was laying in bed last night and was like if I want to do it all I have to start by doing whats best for me and not necessarily getting "rid" of anything but pausing certain things in my life. (like a second job), It got really tough for me handling everything from school to work to meetings and performances and something had to give. In my opinion Miss. York is a job and helping others is what I want to do. Singing is a job and that is one of the main and only things I know, is how to get on that stage. Going to school full-time is a job and that is also a commitment that I have made to myself that I won't stop or give up because that is something that nobody will ever be able to take away from me. So to make my long story short I put a pause on one of my jobs where I was a server. I feel like it was a great experience and I learned a lot. I can not describe the feeling I felt afterwards though knowing I was taking a long break from it, like so much weight was lifted from my shoulders. I guess it was a sign because I automatically started thinking positive again and was ready to take on the rest of my life and then I knew it was meant to happen because I got a text from my mother telling me I am singing the National Anthem for the opening of a New Wal-Mart in Charlotte NC next week. Now let me just say this THAT IS A PRETTY BIG DEAL! I was like wow I am so blessed and thankful that I went through the hard times. Some people really don't realize how great they have it. I feel like you have to go through the rough to appreciate the great because it can be taken away at any second.

Its so funny because I seriously will be driving down the road and can picture myself in music videos or even on stage singing a duet with somebody who has already made it hmmmm idkkkkk....Carrie maybe? haha All I can think about is what I can do to better myself and set a better example for my sisters and their friends and my friends and the people around me. I want to make a difference because I know that I can. I work really hard at what I do and I know what I want and go for it. I think we all get down a little bit sometimes but thats when you gotta get right back up on your feet and thank God you still have them. I am so excited about working with the Feeding the Hungry Organization you have no idea. I can't imagine what it is like to not eat for weeks or days and to know that CHILDREN or ANYBODY in general do it on a daily basis makes my stomach hurt. Which is why I am going to help in anyway that I possibly can and give to others because that is seriously what I love doing. Whether its food or clothes...anything is possible and nobody should ever NOT EAT.

I am so ready to take on what this year has to offer and striving to be the best at whatever I do. I know that I am not perfect and thats okay, but I also want to help other people realize that they can strive too and learn to think positive more :) I know I am going to have many more entries...I like this blogging thing...hopefully I will be able to reach out! The Sky is the limit, and IM shooting for the stars.